What Happen..

It’s the weekend again and after much relieve, I had a day’s rest at home. Stayed at home today and recharged my battery. Attachment every weekday and was out on Saturday, it feels great to just be at home doing my stuff and resting.

Had a football match on Saturday. It was a disappointing performance by all of us. We didn’t play well at all, and by actual fact, we were outplayed. For the first 15 minutes, we kept our shape and were keeping the possession of the ball. However, when we conceded the first goal, we started to lose the confidence and eventually, the game.

The pitch was horrible. We can’t play our normal simple passing game. However, that was not an excuse for our lousy performance. I was not only disappointed with our poor result, but also our team’s attitude as a whole. We didn’t show any hunger and enthusiasm on the pitch and I was terribly upset after the game. Sadly, I don’t see that in my teammates. Sometimes, I do wonder what they are thinking about and really wonder what happen to Maoists..

Back to school, it’s the 3rd week for this coming week. Time flew on the second week and I do wonder how come time can just go past so fast without knowingly. It’s probably of the busy and hectic timetable every single day that I didn’t even realise that hours have past. It’s a new week with new challenges. The end of the month and a start of a new month are equal to more things to do and accomplished.

I miss adss.
I miss my cadets.
I miss those glory days.
of course,
I miss you.

Cheers,

Attachment.Football.

It’s been a long time since I laid my fingers on the keyboard and start typing on my blog post. Yes, attachment was busy enough to pull away from my computer and of course, it also taught me many things along the way.

*It will be a long entry. Just to let you know before you continue scrolling down.*

Attachments has been my main focus for the past weeks and it’s just like a working life. 8.30 -5.30 everyday except for weekends and signing in and out each day. It’s already half of my second week and fortunately, I’m quite enjoying it.

Have been given tasks each day to be completed and there will never be a free day. Of course, there will be times when we slacked and just simply don’t have the energy to complete the task at hand, still, it’s a learning process.

Learning process is never easy and even just a start of one week, I sometimes wonder whether what I’m currently doing now is the right one. During the first week, my team was given a task and was expected to completed by one day. Sadly, we only managed to finish it on the second day.

We were told by our supervisor that it was not really well done. Somehow, I was quite disappointed after seeing my team putting so much effort in it. The second thing was about the task given to us. I was not very pleased about the idea of doing it and I was not really sure what’s the whole objective of the task. We just followed blindly.

I believe that attachment is something which we can gain experience and learn more things outside from the textbooks. However, for that particular task, I don’t think I’ve learn anything from it. I was reflecting and wondering why am I spending so much time and effort doing it when I think it’s kind of meaningless? We are just doing it because we are told to do so.

I did ask myself whether to question and ask why my team was doing such a meaningless activity and ended up disappointed despite so much efforts put in. Luckily or not, I didn’t. I thought it over and realised I shouldn’t jeopardise my team’s efforts just on my own selfish thinkings.

Having said that, working in a team is also another difficult element that we need to learn and execute properly. Being team mates, I believe that one have to give in at times and listen to one another. Everyone has his/her thinkings and sometimes, it can’t be avoided that there will be conflicts happening. I do hope that everything will go well for us and all of us will score well for our grades.

Definitely, during attachments, I made many friends along the way. Many of them. From my MSC office (OPS, IM) to MSC outlets.(Valueshop, Pretty Face, Fusion, Giodano, Cheers) These guys just made my attachment enjoyable and even in just a week or so, all of us are like joking and helping each other. That’s something which pleases me the most. Best of all, I’m enjoying my time with every single one of them.

Last evening, I went for the football trials. It’s a new year and they will be recruiting new players again. Last year, I did go, however, didn’t got in. Hence, I decided to give it a go this year. Sadly, I didn’t make it again.

Although I was not selected, I did improve since last year. I managed to overcome many rounds as compared to last year when I didn’t enter the second round. Maybe I was unlucky, or probably just not good enough to be in. I know my standards. Despite improvement, I guess I’m still not good enough to play at that level.

Nevertheless, I know I did try my best and the fact of improvement is good enough.

Cheers.

School Starts..

School started today after such a long holiday break. Battery recharged and was raring to go to school. Though facing some difficulties getting out of bed early, I put up a positive mind and headed for school. MRT was so slow and packed, it even stopped halfway. At the first thought, I thought somebody had just jumped train again. Luckily, I was able to make a smooth trip down.

Attachment starts officially today and I was beginning to have the feel of it. Working in that small room with my fellow 4 team mates are somethings new and fresh to me ever since I came into polytechnic. Started to do some work and learn more things in the working world as well.

Of course, I was feeling weird and didn’t what to do in the early hours. I was trying to adapt to the new surroundings and communicate with not only with my team-mates but also other departments as well. Fortunately, I think I did quite well for the first time. Was quite clear of what I’m supposed to do and my team is cooperative with one another.

It’s not a bad start and I’m quite pleased with what I’m doing. Although it’s not something really nice and comfortable, I do think that it’s a new learning process and today was just the first day. I’m sure a good start will lead to many better days.

Played football over the weekend. I truly enjoyed these sessions of running and sweating out under the sun. My overall play improved a little and I’ve been monitoring my own progress as well. Just glad that I’m back playing regularly and with my great football buddies, it’s no doubt that we are going to improve as a team and individually. Come on Maoists!

Oh yes, yesterday was my good buddy, Jiun Hsien’s birthday. The usual guys went out to celebrated with him. KBOX, dinner at Swensens and the ice-cream cake was awesome. I’m pleased to see him smiling all the way and he’s been a great guy ever since we know each other since secondary 1. The joker in us. A guy who never fails to make all of us smile with his silly jokes. A good buddy of mine.

It’s going to be a fulfilling week and I will be looking forward to whatever things coming up for me.

Cheers.

Thought You Would Know..

Thought you would know,
This feeling’s taking control of me.
I just can’t help it.

I tried my best,
to let go of you.
but, somehow,
I don’t want to.

There’s so much I can’t say.
Do you just want me to hide the feelings,
and just look the other way.

I just got to say it all,
before i go.
Thought you would know.

Cheers.

Back To School..

I was back in school for TEP orientation yesterday. Went for the briefing early in the morning. Had difficulties waking up such an early hour. I’m having holidays!

For those who do not know what’s TEP is about, it’s a programme my school set for all students in which they have to be attached to some work or company, either in school or externally. This is to allow the students to have a feel of how working life is about and to prepare us for the future.

I do like this idea of preparing us for future challenges and I was pretty excited and looking forward to it. However, things didn’t went the way I expected. We were at the auditorium and the briefing started only when all the people came and settled down. The briefing began and it was pretty blur of what we suppose to do. Instructions given was not clear and half of the time, I was scratching my head, wondering what’s going on.

The briefing is so lengthy and it seems to me that they are just trying to chunk the whole of information to us just like that. How can we possibly able to catch in just 30 minutes? It’s a new activity for us and I believe that we need time and space to adapt to the new changes. After the briefing, I was left asking my friends what to do and where should i go etc. It’s really unclear of what’s happening and I could see that many of the students were having the same thought as me.

My name appeared twice in the board and I was quite puzzled of where to report to after the briefing. I was instructed to go to the auditorium. But, when I reach there, I was told to go to another lecture room. I was running around and confused at the same time. In the end, I was attached to a department name Business Development.

BD is an area in which we organise projects and with the help of the rest of departments, we have to work together to get the shops moving. I’m still not very sure of the details, but at least a brief idea of what’s going on.

We were called to the Ops room and to be asking our seniors of what’s the job scope is about and they will be handling their stuff for us to be taken over. We were told to wait and we just waited and waited. It just pissed me when all of us (the new batch) was waiting while the seniors were just playing around. I was wondering what’s on earth are we waiting for. It’s just simply wastage of time. After about 1 hour or so of waiting, we were finally being taught of what to do and what’s our job scope will be like.

It seems to me that the whole system just totally screwed up. Lecturers and students doesn’t seems to be cooperating well together. Everything seems to be in a mess and I was really thinking, how are we going to learn under such poor environment? Time is being wasted on just WAITING. This just shows how efficient are the system is going.

I’m more than determined to change the current situation and improve on it. We can’t possibly be learning in this way. I may sound selfish, but I believe that a lot of us would be thinking the same way. Those guys who were with me, waiting foolishly in that messy little room, were just as pissed as me. Though they didn’t say anything, but their face just tells me all.

I’m afraid that the society outside in Singapore would be in this way. I didn’t see and taste it but it seems to me like everywhere it would be like this. Are people just so selfish and just simply care about themselves?  Are systems so inefficient that time is just being wasted every now and then? To be frank, I do not know. However, I believe things can be changed and improved. We can’t possibly be just taking over what is left behind and let it continue to rot. We have to set a good foundation which will be followed down by batches younger than us. I’m sure in this way, it would be more efficient and more things and tasks can be completed.

These are the thoughts in my mind upon leaving school yesterday.

School is starting really soon and that indicates to me that holidays are ending soon as well. I have to set the mindset for work and no more fun for me. It have been a long break and I think it’s time to get firing up with battery fully charged.

Guys out there, work hard in whatever you do.

Cheers.

Poor Form..

I went to play some football this morning. With my company of my close buddies, we played street soccer under the scorching sun which caused the sun-burn on my face. It’s pretty normal under such a weather.

Played several games and it was really tiring for me. My legs were stiff and to be frank, I was panting after each game. It was really disappointing for me. Somehow, I felt demoralised looking at myself and my own performance on the court. I know, it’s just a game of football and it’s just a kick-around with friends.

Football is my passion since I was young and have been watching and playing it till now. I could remember that a ball has always been with me. During my primary school days, I was in the school team and at that point, I was enjoying my time on the field. Training each week and a coach(CS) to guide me. I was pleased that I was improving each time I played.

As I reached secondary school, I formed my own football team and we played football regularly. Scored some memorable goals and those moments on the field were unforgettable. However, I didn’t have any coaches to guide me along and I didn’t know how I faired each game. I was the captain of the team and was busy handling my team-mates rather than myself. Somehow, I knew my standard became stagnant, didn’t improve further.

As I reached polytechnic, the amount of time spent on football was so little. Didn’t have much time for football due to many commitments. That’s probably an excuse. My stamina, skills, and the overall game really went down the hill. I was able to play 90 minutes full back then, now, I’m panting after just a short game. Like today, I wasn’t able to do things on the court which I was able to do before. Overall game was pretty poor and I was truly disappointed with myself.

No doubt, I didn’t spend much time on football and it’s no wonder that everything went haywire. However, the fact of seeing myself performing so badly for something which I truly love and enjoy doing really hurts. My foundations are still there, however, my body and mind don’t react at the same time which caused me to make so much mistakes.

My buddies know my standards and even though they didn’t tell me what went wrong, I knew that they could feel that there’s something amiss in me. Was slow in every apartment, failed to score in open goals were just somethings which I should be able to do easily few years back.

I do hope that I would be able to get that form and be able to play well again, at least I feel satisfied myself. I can’t deny that it’s going to be difficult, I guess I have to dig in and put more practices in every aspect of the game.

Cheers,