Costly Mistakes..

As I reflect,
some mistakes I made,
they were really crucial.

Some are really painful.
Some are due to immaturity.
Some are due to impulsiveness.

When they say,
we learn from mistakes.
However,
some mistakes made are just,
can’t be reversed.

You have to pay for everything you do,
especially mistakes,
which I am doing right now.

If only I can turn back time.

Last Day of IPP Attachment – 25th Apr 08

11 weeks of internship is over.
2 and a half months of working life has sadly officially ended today.

I slept late last night. Late enough to watch a football match in normal circumstances. However, I can’t bear to sleep because I know 25 April 08 is the day which everything would end. I woke up early, despite the short sleep, I was not tired. I was looking forward to make my way down to workplace. I know it’s going to be my last time making this trip down as an intern.

The day was great. I smiled at everyone in the department. I packed my stuff. My table. Prepared the handing over of the next intern who is replacing me. Completed some minor, unfinished tasks and had a great lunch. The noodles just rocked my world.

The handing over session started. I was really explaining as detailed as I could. I really don’t want the next intern to screw up anything. Making sure that she understood and then I would move on to the next point. As I was handing over, I just couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable. In my mind, I was reluctant to do all these. I was feeling uneasy. The sense of unwillingness did creep in. But I didn’t hold back, no matter how unwilling I was. I know I have to do it well.

The session was smooth though tough for me. The farewell was next and there were lots of food for everyone. Sadly, I had no appetite. I have to admit, I was feeling really down and losing it. I tried my best to put up a smile for everyone. I was given the chance to say some words to the department and I gave it my best shot considering the mood and atmosphere then.

I took pictures. Really happy ones. It has been a great experience and I believe these learning opportunities would be definitely beneficial to me in the future. I would be more than delighted to stay on, however, somethings are just beyond our control.

You guys have always been there for me!

I still lost it at the end. I thought I was strong enough to endure, but sadly, emotions won the battle. I cried. I shook their hands and hugged everyone on my way out. It didn’t feel good, it really didn’t. Yes, I didn’t know this place would have such an big impact on me. I cried all the way from the top to the bottom. I do not know what happened, but I just couldn’t help it.

I will miss you guys. Thank you for everything, taking care of me. I’m so glad to be able to experience everything in this wonderful family. Ah Boy won’t disappoint you.

Cheers!

Guest of Honor – Zheng Ying

Hello pals!
After much follow up of the posts, I’m sure you guys knew the reason I’m here for.
A thrilled feeling I’ve got while writing this post. Well, what’s more than being cordially invited to write over at this gentleman’s blog? Groovy!

Now the worried thing comes in. What topics to talk about? Like everyone knows or at least the invited ones, to write at someone’s blog and writing for yourself is totally a different touch!
While munching my fav cookie away, expecting inspirations to knock on me (as he told me no stress, write at my own pace) but it’s already the fifth packet & nothing comes in mind. Genius. So I’d better start writing and let inspirations flow naturally more willingly than presenting a blank page. Haha
All right, let’s not beat about the bush & get started without ado.

I get to know him from one of his classmates, so it’s those friends’ friend relationship. At that time was only the first year & my impression of him was rather vague. Recalling painstakingly, I only knew there is a guy named Louis (not knowing his full name either) in our school, class 1E2? One of the many girlie’s eye candy & yes that’s how much I know initially.
Then the subsequent year, when we first move to our new campus that’s when we got all so bonded amongst the pioneers and I managed to hear from him more. This time round, what a demure boy he is! I thought. Despite his good testimonials from peers, he still portrays a humble side of himself. Bonus point here!
As time passes, my group of girlfriends and his group of boyfriends (Maoist) just happened to get together and had frequent hangouts. Can’t exactly tell how we did that but just somehow became close friends. And that lasted through our secondary years, till then we are all in different tertiary schools but still stay in contact with some.
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Didn’t much realize until now that I bring to mind, the friendship we share as a group is something worthy and memorable. We had several good times that is always well kept at the back of my head. Let’s shine a glee for that my friend!

As for now, just a bit on myself. Pleasantly, friends call me Zheng ying and just that. Some finds it hard so by initials ‘zy’, anyway that should be it.
Have a good day there! J

Quote of the day:
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” –Dr. Seuss-

Emotions..

My iTunes was playing “Fall For You” by Secondhand Serenade and straight after that, it was playing “Sorry” by Buckcherry. This 2 songs are really nice and it just totally suits the mood right now. The songs have totally no link with my feelings, but somehow, it just compliments with my emotions.

Last week in attachment. I’m making full use of this week to end it well and hopefully, a happy ending. The last 10 weeks has been one of my best learning experiences which I totally appreciate.

Sometimes, you can’t afford to lose focus. In football, once you loses focus, you tend to make mistakes and you gotta pay for it. Likewise in daily lives, making mistakes is normal but I would prefer that I won’t make it at all especially it can be prevented with a little bit more of carefulness. Learning from mistakes, climbing up from failures, picking yourself up from a fall are just some phrases we always hear everyday. It’s very difficult though.

Cheers,

Differentiation = Change?

School is starting, attachment is ending. Football season is going to be over. I’m entering into my third year of poly now. CIship is also coming to an end. I guess things would be different after just a few more weeks or so. Well, there’s nothing much I can do except to look forward even though some may not be what I want it to be.

Pretty busy during the weeks. Attending parades, birthdays, football matches, swimming, picking up my iPod (It went crazy just after 3 months)from servicing. Of course, busy schedule has been fulfilling for me. Meeting up with friends, interaction with people are essentially important.

I went back to Adss last Friday to receive the award for my contribution to the school over the years. It was also the Speech Day which is an yearly event. Took this opportunity to see my cadets and see how they were performing. Sadly so, due to my attachment and my new timetable next semester, I do not have much time to be back there teaching them.

Took some photos. Sorry for some poor quality shots.

That’s mine!

Along with Liyana, she won the award as well.

Syafiqah. Award winner!

Ily. Award winner!

HuiLing. She did very well in her work. Good job!

The next day, we went to the Annual Parade at HTA. We were in our full uniform and the parade went really well. Some of my cadets were in the GOH contingent and they were awesome. Well Done! We also received our GOLD award for 2007 and it was a very proud, proud moment.

That’s our school flag!

Home Team Academy

With WeiZhan, our squadmate. It’s so nice to see him again.

Yes! Our GOLD award! With OC Mr Tan.

With my lovely instructors!

The Award I’ve been reaching for

The feeling was great. Holding it, knowing the fact that your target has been reached.
Thank you Adss.

I went to the NAFA Orchestra Concert last week and it was enjoyable. Along with my German colleague, I believe both of us would agree that the performance was impressive at the Victoria Concert Hall. It’s my second time been there and it reminded me some memorable memories in the past. It saddened me that it was the past, not the present.

A picture taken outside the Victoria Concert Hall

I’m hoping for a good end and smooth start. Have a good week!

Cheers!

Guest of Honor – Xiujuan

HOLA!

2 years ago…Very disappointly, I ended up in NYP instead of NP or SP. But you know what? It’s actually a blessing in disguise! I got into BM0623(BN) which is a class filled with _______(insert all positive adjective here) people. And this is where I got to know this popular site owner, LOUIS!

However, ahem, my clique and I were not very enthusiastic about class outings and sorts so I didn’t really have a good chance to know him and the class. Despite that, he’s still very friendly and nice. No one would disagree if I say he should be categorized under endangered human, right?! EH! I started this entry with a purpose to state all the negative traits of him(since no one is doing so) and look what I’ve just typed before this sentence?!!

Continuing from the class outings part, the only outings my clique attended was the Kbox birthday celebration, Christmas celebration and class chalet. Why am I talking about class outings instead of my impression of him? Because, the best thing about him is…he always make everyone feels at place! Xuewei and I are both who don’t like to start conversation with people we’re not so close with. That’s also the reason why we can’t ‘click’ with others, not because we’re anti social or dislike them you know. So…during class outings when the usual clique will be with the usual friends, this strange Mr Nice Guy will go around talking with everyone. Behaving just like the outing host, a very good host. You say he good or not? Good right! And also, He’s very generous, not stingy at all, in showing his megawatt smile to everyone. Like this —–> =D Maybe this is the reason why everyone like him so much? If that’s so, I will practice smiling in the mirror everyday! Haha!

Going to Year2, scm, very luckily I got into the same class as this Mr Nice Guy again. But his year, he lost quite a bit of his ’shine’. Maybe cause of this class, which is like, in my opinion ‘URGH’. Must polish and bring out yourself like in year1, so active, outspoken blah blah blah. And this year, he saved someone! Which is me! During the exams period, I had already lose all hope in studying cause I’ve failed almost all my icas and he was one of them who kept cheering me. All the ‘加油’, ‘you can one’, ‘must study hor’. Because of him and my other friends, I tried my best and really study in order not to disappoint them. Thank you! hurhur.

And I have to compliment on one last thing, how often do you see guys blogging about their family? How often do you see guys actually saying that they enjoy their family gathering blah blah blah. HOW OFTEN? Guys who love their family are nice person. So this is another ‘plus point’ right?

After saying how I met him, all my impression and why I like him, I hope everyone agree with me (most of you do! Or else why read his blog right?) And thus, I’ve also concluded that his biggest negative trait is being too nice and friendly. Cause he’ll make many jealous of him and then they’ll start making voodoo dolls and poking it. Hor? So bad. HA!

I am calling out to everyone, his good-ness, do not stop at the end of this entry, DO NOT STOP HERE .YOU all got to know him yourselves to discover more. He is too good to be single! (See, I’m really GOOD to you right)

To thank you for being such a nice friend and also further prove that I’m a very GOOD friend, I will now post a very ugly photo of mine.

I have not post this photo in anywhere before and because of your blog, I sacrifice my mashi maro look alike smile photo.

And also this one.

PS: I hope this entry is long enough, and am sorry that it sounded so much like a match make agency portfolio. Haha!

CHEERIO!

Guest of Honor – Joyce

It was by fate that we met. It was by chance that we got to know each other. It was by choice that we get to know each other better. It was you that taught me what friendship is.

The above was recited by me that summarized the process of us being strangers till the development of being good friends. There isn’t even a tinge of regret knowing this great pal of mine. Excluding the fact that we are considered childhood mates, we actually got to know each other better after the schooling years. He is definitely one good mate who tries to compromise as much as he can and spare time to even dine or hangout together to keep the bonding intact.

I guess life was rather unpredictable, the fact that upon graduation our friendship actually improved. It was too unexpected. Also, all thanks to him, I met a nice friend who also took the initiative to arrange for meetings and ferry us home as and when he is available.

I guess we are all busy young adults, moving on to the next level of our life pretty soon and I really hope that we would still be able to keep this friendship going. Hopefully we’ll be able to catch up real soon, be it walking around, chatting or playing tennis. (:

Spring Cleaning = Tiring?

*Post it up to test the new function of WordPress. Steven Gerrard !

The week just flew by so quickly that I’m posting another entry on a Sunday night. It’s been like the same routine everyday especially these few weeks. Work, sleep for the 5 weekdays, and weekends went away in a blink. Is this what I’m going to face in future when I enter the society? I seriously have no idea.

Attachment has been going very well, enjoying the working experience and my colleagues are really great. With 3 weeks left, I will definitely going to miss that place and the people there.

Back to blogging, I’m trying to invite more people into my guests list. It seems to me that I’m running out of writers! Well, how’s the last guest? She just uploaded many of my unglam photos and posted it up! Haha, as I promise all my guests that I won’t edit what they write, she really relished this opportunity really well. Look forward to the next one coming up.

During the day, I had some time. I didn’t want to waste my time facing the computer the whole day. Hence, I decided to do some spring cleaning in my room. Removed everything on my table and wiped away every single dust on it. While I was doing that, I was wondering when is the last time I did all these which eventually, I couldn’t get the answer. As I was cleaning, I began to perspire and after a while, I really felt tired.

I was beginning to feel strange. Whenever I do sports, the amount of time for me to be tired is not as fast as I did today. Climbing up and down, moving left and right in my room was not an easy task as it seemed. Nevertheless, I felt really satisfied seeing my room all cleaned up and tidy. I ended up knocked off on my bed after shower.

A busy week ahead. Many events to attend to. Testing my time management skills again.
Have a great week people.

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Cheers!

Guest of Honor – Karen aka AhMa

Thanks for the invite! Gracia!

Getting to know his existence..
It was in the 2nd year when SBM (School of Business Management) students were to do the Teaching Enterprise Progam (TEP) where I get to know there’s a guy named Louis.

The first meeting
I saw this guy wearing a red lanyard and black jacket in the opposite direction, upon collection of the personal selling items in my first stopover, Customer Service Centre-Tradewinds.
Taking the chance of my half day leave, I went up to find two of my close clique at that point in time, Shengting and Serene. Quite a lot of catch up to do. Stayed at Giordano and Pretty face most of the time when I head back to school for the collections for the personal selling. Get to hear juicy updates from my friends, and their surroundings, including this fella- Louis.

Formal introduction
However, it was mostly the mentioning of names and more updates of other team members. The formal get-to-know starts from here, the BSU days. We were from the same team and it’s due to the common friends we have in the team and etc, that we get to know each other as teammates and gradually friends.

Sho, Sheng Ting and Serene constitutes to the main linkage of our friendship. All three of them, my classmates. His clique of friends and special bonding during MSC days.
Louis, Sho, and I were in the same BSU Team 1. Sho is the common friend of us. As I was out of NYP during first stopover, I know no one else in the team except for him (Sho). I started to hang out with him and Louis .

Apart from daily assignments, which we hardly even get, we will be spot loitering around the corridors with Serene and J.Y from the Human link (opposite our room) and Johnson. Going for breakfast, lunch, breaks and all. Mostly with them, in large groups or even say three or four of us.
Activities we were doing during the 8.30 am to 5.30pm timing:
Chewing on Haribos, slacking, listening to his mp3, going for self-proclaimed breaks, watch them play puzzle fighters, CS, mahjong?, teasing of one another, loitering and chatting at the corridors.

Slacking in the room, Louis, Sho, Johnson

Louis and his pose

Tension
A funny accident was also caught up during those days. The nasty attendance taking prick. We were to report to the Human Link for our daily attendance taking, monitored by our friends and foe. Amongst the three of us ( Louis, Sho & I), this potential early comer (Louis) helped the two of us to sign in too. *Long story.. Shan’t continue* You know, I know, they know can le. Later the prick also know. And a commotion arose. So we had to rush up from Cheers with soya bean and curry puff, explaining to Mr Tan.=x Yeah yeah.. And he felt a bit guilty for that. Rite!
Yup! That, I guess is not really safe to be mentioned in the post. Nothing much about Louis anyway. So back to the right track.

Chit Chat
Apart from the usual chill out and teasing, there are also other topics to chat about. Other than friendship will be relationships. As I mentioned earlier, there’s other two ladies who’s in the picture who are our common friends. So we’re chatting about one of them and something about crushes at the sky garden. *Smirks
I guess Sho had went to find his crush that’s why we had the time then. So we had a chat about love life and touch a little on the person he had a crush on. It’s a short chat if I’m not wrong. He had quite a number of advisors on that, from both genders.
The guy who’s looking all relax and brimming with confidence do face complexity down the road too. =D Everything is fine-tuned right now, back on track!
Team 1 Room
We were banned from games and all, but who really cares? You’ll still see them playing CS, puzzle fighters when the lecturers are not around. Other than that, it will be silence in the room as most are out with their own cliques of friends, the rest, with ear pieces plugged to their ears.
Louis appeared to be giving some of my friends, the idea that he listens to English music. However, it was through then that I found out he’s a Mandarin pop lover too.
His mp3 is flooded with nice songs and the next moment, we’re listening to 5566’s songs, singing aloud in the room with lyrics on the monitor screen. LOL! It’s hilarious to know that someone like Louis will like their songs. Well, it’s due to the lyrics and not the idols (5566) I think. LOL.
Good Friends, Great Company
Two more! Truancy and outings.
We even went out of the school compound during the TEP hours, self-proclaimed leaves. With Sho, the sole ‘leave applier’ for his booking of test date for his motor driving or lessons. And not forgetting the trip down the Chinese Sinseh at Serangoon. =X

So till today, I guess we’re out in outings for three times?
The last BSU dinner and chilling at the pub.
Serene’s Birthday Celebration 2007 in August
Louis’s 19th birthday celebration this year.
Ah Ma and Grandson
I get to know the name that his grandma call him. I’ve forgotten how I get to know of the name. But I remembered, he was reluctant to repeat when I forgot how to pronounce, the following day. And after much begging? I started calling him using that name ever since on MSN and in school. Haha. And was being called AH MA! Instead of my name ever since. HAHA. Leading to other team mates calling me ah ma too.
De-coder
While we’re logging on to our mails and msn in the room, I caught a glimpse of him typing his password to his friendster? Or wordpress or email? Nono. Is it your log in access to the school’s pc? Forgotten. Somehow, I managed to get access to his account after several trials and errors. I think it’s MSN! Heh heh. And he got a shock, staring at how I try after the first time. I felt like I’m so smart. HAHA.
Hee. That’s all the activities that I can vividly remember having.
Louis Loo Zhe Zheng
Louis is a nice guy friend to have for company. Seems like he’s always brimming with smiles most of the times excluding when he’s not feeling well. A special friend whom I meet for the first time then for the past 18 years. Not like he’s having special powers or so, but in his actions and characters I guess. The way he treat his friends and how he sees himself to be in the future- policeman before workforce?

Cheerios
It’s always nice to reminisce on the past times that we had, the history that we had laid upon and the sweet memories that we left behind. And thanks for giving me the chance to contribute an entry and also reminisce the good old days.
I was at a K-session for Florence’s bday celebration just a week ago, and singing the song by Shi Xin Hui. Xiang Ting de Hua. I recalled the days where they had a hard time finding the song and many were influenced to listen to this song, recorded via hp recorder!! Love it. The emo/ sentimental song.
Life beyond today
Look ahead of you, it’s always good to stay positive and get over any setbacks. As they are the reasons to new experience growths, creating the person who we become in the future.