Sudden Urge

It has been months since I’ve enter the “Add New” column to post a new entry here. It’s almost dead over here for the last 2 months or so. Oh well, a sudden urge of typing thoughts into this site of mine just came randomly.

Life has been rather standardisded. You can say it’s meaningless to a certain extent, which I don’t deny it too. Still, there were times whereby I enjoyed every minute the things I did during these holidays and I guess that is what matters most to me.

Have been coughing for a month or so, and hence, I was not really fit to exercise as much as I want to. (Mum is warning me not to run every now and then) Fortunately, my cough has recovered, i think so. Hence, it’s time to work out more often as I can feel that my stamina is going downwards. It’s kind of sad.

After cooping myself in my room for most of the time today, I decided to head downstairs for a jog. With a rather lethargic body, I forced myself to the nearest park near my place and started jogging. Along with my Ipod, I just ran, ran and ran.

To my pleasant surprise, I was not tired as I expected to be and I knew I definitely ran more than 2.4km. Of course, during my jog, I was enjoying the sceneries. Sky was getting dark while some others are jogging as well.

As I was doing my cooling down routines, I observed the things around me especially the people around. I saw a father and son playing football at the nearby court. Of course, whenever there’s football, it interests me. But this time round, it’s not the ball which caught my attention. It’s the interaction between the 2 parties.

I could see the son was enjoying the whole session as well as his father. The happiness on their faces along with their perspiration got me thinking. I was reflecting when was the last time I smiled that happily just like them. The thought in fact, did not make me unhappy, it somehow calmed myself and my mind down and I turned away with a smile on my face.

I just felt so peaceful at that moment.

At the same time, primary school kids were released from school. Some of them are running back home with their heavy bags, some are queuing buying ice-cream. Still, all I saw was smiley faces.

I really wonder, when we really smile in front while taking a photo, do we really feel happy at the moment the picture was snapped? I really do not know. I guess as we grow older, (Im only 20 this year! wth!) the amount of times we smile truly is getting lesser each day, sadly so.

I went down jogging with troubled thoughts, and a very lazy body. But after a half an hour, I’m back home with enlightened mind, telling myself to think lesser and smile more.

In other updates..

1. I’m going to serve the nation on the 13 July 2009.

2. I wanted to delete this site in the beginning, but on second thoughts, I shall just keep it here for history browsing and reflection purposes.

3. Thanks for reading all the crap I’ve written above, that’s if you read.

Cheers!